I was totally worthless today :(

Yes, it is true. I woke up this morning hung over. Which I thought was weird because I really hadn't drank that much. Alicia came over last night and we watched movies and drank a couple bottles of wine. Really I feel my hangover was disproportionate to the level of alcohol that I drank. I just don't understand my body any more. I can't gauge my level of drunkenness, or how bad my hangover is going to be, and it is really starting to suck. Maybe this is a sign that I shouldn't drink any more.

Anyway, I sat on my ass ALL day, except for the last 20 minutes when I did a load of dishes. I was really, really worthless today.

Eric was supposed to get back tonight, but his flight was cancelled. So now I have to go get him in the morning. I was really excited to have him back home too. When he left, I could hardly wait to get him out the door, and now I can't wait to get him home. I think I just needed a little time to myself. I'm sure he could use the time away from me too. I think our relationship dynamic works a little better when we have some time apart. It makes me appreciate him more when he is around.

I have a hibiscus that decided to sprout out one little bud and bloom... I thought I'd killed it. It's lost almost all it's leaves, so it looks really funny. It's like a bunch of naked sticks with a flower on top. See.

For now, I'm taking it as a personal message not to give up. Since, even though it looked like it was about to give up and die, it put in a little effort and popped out something beautiful. I haven't talked about it too much on here, but work has been a little iffy lately. I just can't decide if I like what I do any more. I've been doing the apartment management thing for the last 4 years, and I did really like it, but I'm just not sure any more. I keep rolling around the idea of getting my travel and tourism certificate... but I know how I am.

I have a tendency to get all about something, and throw myself entirely into it. Then, out of nowhere. One day I'm just done with it. I've always done that. With work, with hobbies, with people. I don't know why I can't just stay interested in things for longer than a couple years. It kinda sucks.

Eh, anyway. I didn't mean to go into all that, and I really should be getting to bed. I have to get up earlier than normal tomorrow to go pick up Eric from the airport... but I'm really don't feel tired. It's not like I  used any energy today. Oh well. I think I'm going to wrap this up. Good night all.